Tuesday, October 28, 2008
hello people.
i think i am giving up guitar.
my mum really dont intend to buy me one and let me learn it.
i dont wish to give up but what can i do??
She's my mum.i had to obey her.i cant be hiding behind her back to learn that.
i know she is disappointed in my result so yea i am really sorry.
i am disappointed in myself too so i guessed this is my retribution for not studying harder.
i know she had lose some faith in me as from the argument just now,i heard her blurt out something like this:
what for learning guitar,when i did so badly in my exam.
BAnd is already very laborious for me what am i still asking for.
Asking for more things to fail my exam??
she also said something true:
brain not good still want to learn guitar.
yea i wonder if i am plain stupid or what.study also can study until like that.
maybe i dont really deserved what i want then.
Giving up is the thing i can do now.
I am so envy of lisa when she told me that her parents will be buying either wii or guitar for her.
Of course i felt happy for her.Really..i meant it.
But for me,i am not that lucky.
so guys i shall stop bloggin about how much i want a guitar
this shall save you all from hearing this from me again.
Happy xDya happy.
okay my tears cant stop flowwing but i really had to say this.
i am guilty i am guilty i am guilty.
I think i had to really work so much so much harder then next year.
maybe i should listen to my mum...take up tuition.
(even though i dont think i should let this waste my time)
next two years are very very crucial to me.I had to do my parents proud.
maybe i had to put music behind..focus on my study
since my mum thinks that studies is better even though i think music is the path for me.
but i really had to say this...I am sorry sorry sorry sorry for million times.
i dont know what i can do to help salvage this.BUt saying sorry is all i could say.
wow.i think thats all gotta stop my tears from flowing..Daddy is coming home.
later he gonna see me crying ooooorhhhhhhhh scary hahasD
ARHhhhhh! shit...tears back again.hahs. i think its fun..it hasnt been so long since i teared.
I'll be the sky, & watch over you.
VinTage LOve.
5:24 PM
